This blog has been re-vamped in the past, and taken down again and again. Blame it on projects that were started but never went anywhere. I made some changes, hopefully for the better, and I hope that you can take something away from each post. Well...here we go.
Introspection...
What do you do with three hours of time three days a week? I know what I do - think about life. Lately, a lot has been on my mind. Where are things going with my life, and where will the next few years take me? More specifically, I've been doing a lot of introspection, considering things about myself, various aspects of my working self which I hadn't thought about in a very long time.
Among other things, I've noticed how much I've changed as a person in the past four years. I started my time at University a meek, reclusive person who didn't have hardly a friend in the world (at Uni, anyway). Over the past four years, thanks to several important people in my life, I've become someone who can stand tall and speak openly about himself and what he believes in. Due to recent events, my eyes have been opened to more than just experiences I've had; they've been opened to what makes me who I am.
Over the years, I've struggled with my self-image, self-confidence, and various other self-related aspects. I realized, after a while, I was basing too much on what OTHER PEOPLE thought of me, rather than focusing on how I thought of myself. Due to that realization, I started a wall of positivity. Every morning, I wake up and write something I love about myself on a post-it note and tack it up on my closet door. I noticed an evolution from the first note to some of the most recent. I started out observing things a child would - very concrete things. Nothing so child-like as "I'm a fast runner," but things like "you have beautiful eyes," or "you have a beautiful singing voice." As time went on, I've begun to write down qualities which are far more abstract and, in them, I've found solace. It is those abstract qualities, after all, those things that make up our core character, that should be most important to people; how much money we make or which parts of our bodies are considered "beautiful" in this day and age don't matter at all. You could be considered ugly by our cultural standards and still be like Adonis or Aphrodite on the inside.
Don't rely on cultural expectations to define you. I take pride in the fact that I'm strong-willed, compassionate, level-headed, androgynous, and animated at times. I even take pride in my curves, they were part of what led me to realize I'm not a shallow person. Do some introspection sometime in the near future, consider what qualities make up who you are, what things make you the enchanting person you truly are on the inside.Don't worry so much about what others think, they have their own issues. Love yourself, and let your self-worth soar.
Until next time, readers...
Brandon-
Don't you dare, for one more second, surround yourself with people who are not aware of the greatness that you are. ~Jo Blackwell-Preston
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